I know my baby is still only an embryo the size of a grape, but I have so much love for it.
Some nights I watch my Sprout app. I hold the heartbeat to my chest, so I can feel it beating against mine. I can’t actually feel my baby’s heartbeat yet, but I can imagine it. It is beautiful. One day, after she or he is born I will just lay with my baby on my chest, while we hold each other with helpless and endless love.
That I am alive, and I will get to feel that is a profound achievement of existence. Not just that it is happening to me, but that it can happen at all. Life is so precious.